Something's Missing

Day 4 of the move back to Florida. Not the Utopia I thought it would be. You may be thinking, "Duh!" Well, to be fair, doesn't everything go smoother in our minds? And I'm figuring out what I always knew. Nothing matters without love.

On that note, why does everything in life have to be a trade off? You have to give up something to get something. For once, I wish I could have it all! Close proximity to my son and family, promotion, location, and love. I want that story. To go all Pretty Woman on you, I want the fairy tale! But life rarely cooperates with my plans.

Leaving my lovebug in Tennessee is the hardest thing I've ever done. I guess because I had to share him when he was growing up and wished for a normal life where he was around all the time. Then, I finally got it and I just walked away because I felt divided between him and the familiarity of home and the rest of my family. Ugh. Life sucks.

God, have mercy on the mother's who have lost their children. I can't imagine. Empty nesting has felt like having a limb ripped off. Nothing feels right when that one thing is wrong in your life. But as my wise young man said recently, we both live on the same planet and in the same country. Yes, we can see each other again soon. I. Can't. Wait.